It’s real. When you have cancer, you come to realize that you must financially re-arrange your entire life. Now, please understand that we are not destitute. We still have a decent income, we don’t have terrible worries about finances, we still pay our bills, but it isn’t easy.
Last year, I had hundreds (yes, multiple hundreds) of thousands of dollars that my medical insurance company had to pay for my cancer. HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS! It’s insane. In the grand scheme of it all, we paid a mere fraction of the total cost of my treatments, but, still, not easy.
When it’s all broken down, it’s not just the annual deductible that we have to pay. It’s the missed work for appointments, travel costs to get to those appointments, different aids purchased for recovery (did I REALLY want to buy that super-hot Velcro compression bra for $100?), drug costs I can’t even imagine what that would look like if I had taken a leave from work during chemo… not. easy.
I do a lot of reflecting (dreaming) about what I would have bought with the money spent on medical bills. A new furnace? New central air? New flooring upstairs? Paid off more on the house? Nothing? After mastectomies, I’ve come to realize that a lot of my clothes either don’t fit or aren’t appropriate (show the radiation “tattoos” and/or where cleavage was once upon a time (about 19 years ago 😂😩)) but I get a terrible case of the guilts when I think about buying anything for myself.
This year we are slightly more prepared. Radiation will have me reach my max out-of-pocket costs, but we recently learned that reconstruction will likely go into NEXT YEAR! FML.
I’m thankful every single day for what we have, my reaction to treatments and all of the support we have gotten. This is just another piece to this process.